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This knowledge
which beholds the interconnection of all things among themselves
is a higher knowledge, says Sri Krishna, but the highest knowledge is something
quite different. It beholds one Being, from which one cannot extricate
oneself. All are immersed in that Being. All the rivers find themselves
in the ocean; they do not stand separately in the sea.
Likewise is
the case of the choice of the object of meditation. You love that object
as your dear child. There are some devotees who develop what is known as
vatsalya bhava, the affectionate attitude towards the child
transferred as God Himself seen in an image or idol. You may consider God
as your child. Transfer yourself to the position of a father of this little
child who is Rama or Krishna or Christ. Visibly see them as living bodies.
You have a symbol. People embrace pictures, paintings of Krishna or Christ;
they kiss the cross which is hanging on their neck: a great delight it
is. You can embrace God through a symbol, an idol, a cross, a murti
made of marble or metal, or a diagram. People worship it, hang it on the
neck, hide it secretly and feel immense satisfaction that it is there.
Or you may
have a majestic feeling as Bhishma had towards Sri Krishna. Bhishma's love
for Krishna was not sentimental or rapturous as the gopis had towards
him. He loved Krishna as the master of the universe, great force and power,
indomitable energy descended as an incarnation of the Absolute. That is
the bhava of Bhishma, which is something like considering God as
the Supreme Father, who is the Creator of the cosmos. This attitude is
called aishvarya pradhana bhakti, God loved in His
Might and Magnificence and Glory. Ramanuja, Madhva and acharyas
of that kind advocated a love of God which is known as aishvarya
pradhana bhakti, devotion emanating by the perception of
the magnitude, magnificence, glory, power, and strength of God. "Great
Master, all-powerful Thou art! Great Father, Thou art all!"
You can regard
God as your beloved of heart, which is usually the most difficult thing
to conceive. That is called madhurya pradhana bhakti, wherein
one melts in the sweetness of love. In aishvarya pradhana
bhakti one admires the greatness of the Almighty; here one tastes
the sweetness, the deliciousness, the beauty, the tenderness of the exquisite
presentation. God is honey. There was a saint in southern India who used
to jump in joy, calling God by no other name than 'Honey' - "Oh Honey, oh
Honey! Oh Honey, bathe me. Oh Honey, come! Ocean of Honey, inundate me,
I shall drink You! Oh blissful Honey, come!" When you are virtually mad
with the ecstasy of love of God, you will not know what word to use to
describe it. "Oh my Beloved, You have come!" Afterwards, your mouth closes,
because you do not know what other word you can use in respect of that
thing which is simply breaking your heart due to the excess of love. At
that time you have no word to speak. You keep quiet in the stillness of
bliss.
Romeo sees
Juliet and Juliet sees Romeo. The gopi sees Krishna and Krishna
is dancing in the circle of rasa. Mortals cannot understand what
all this is. The joy of madhura rasa is the pinnacle of the
feeling possible in a human being.
Are you able
to conceive your object of meditation in that way: "Oh, my dear Honey,
come!" Will you say that, or will you say that it is only a dot on the
wall or a pencil, a rose flower, a picture, an idol, a lingam? Will
you think like that? You may ask: "Why should I love a lingam or
a murti which is made of metal or wood?" If you think like that,
then your meditation will bring you nothing worthwhile.
When I have a love
for you, do I love your bones, your flesh, or your nose? What am I loving?
When I tell you that I am delighted to see you, what am I seeing? I am
seeing something inside you, the 'you' which is not a conglomeration of
bones and flesh. Thus, also, when you are satisfied and overjoyed at the
perception of an object of meditation, you should not look at it as a metal,
or a picture or drawing. It is vibrant life.
If you are
capable of choosing the object properly, you can pour upon it any kind
of feeling. It is your child, master, husband, wife, friend, father. It
can be anything whatsoever, provided you are able to adjust your feelings
correctly in respect of that object which becomes your all-in-all. The
object is a representation of a cosmic force. People say that Krishna is
a concentration of the total power of the cosmos. One ray of the sun, properly
concentrated through a high power lens, can draw the energy of the sun.
That is why this concentrated personality of Krishna could assume a cosmic
form.
The object
of meditation is a concentrated focus of the entire structure of the universe.
To give the same example, if you touch any part of my body, you have touched
my entire body, though it is only a touching of the toe. The toe will communicate
the message to the whole body. The little object of meditation is not one
object as such. It is a representation of the totality of creation as a
whole, because the universe is reflected even in an atom.
As you can
reach the ocean through any river, can reach a place through any road,
can fly with an aeroplane to any place in any direction, so also can you
reach the Universal Whole through any symbol that you employ, because every
symbol is a representation of the Total Whole.
All right,
intellectually you have understood that every object is as good as every
other; scientifically conceived, it represents all the things in the world.
The whole creation is concentrated in that object, but can you love it?
You have to understand it as the focussing point of the whole universal
power and also be capable of loving it. You cannot simply look at it with
a scientific eye merely.
There was
a lady who was weeping in sorrow. She had some grief; the tears were flowing.
The husband was a scientist. He came running and said that he wanted to
take a little of her tears because he wanted to see what they consisted
of. She said, "I am weeping and you are trying to analyse me scientifically?"
Look at that man's attitude on her feelings. He had scant respect for the
feelings of the weeping lady; he was concerned only with the components
of the tear and wanted to chemically analyse it in the laboratory. He had
no heart; he had only brain.
In a similar
manner, with all your understanding of the nature of the object of meditation
being one concentrated point representing the whole universe, you may not
be able to pour your affection on it: "It is only a lingam, a cross,
a picture; how can I love it?" It is necessary to accommodate yourself
to the need to love it also in the same way as you love anything in the
world.
Tantra Sadhana
There is a
technique of meditation prescribed in another section of the scripture
known as Tantra Shastra, a technology of approaching divinity
in a different manner than the way generally known to people. It is not
necessary to look at an object in order to concentrate upon it. The need
to have a physically visual object in front is the lowest kind of requirement.
You can be immensely happy by the very thought of the object, mentally,
and generate the same sensations inside, even when the object is not present
physically.
What happens
to you is that even when you look at an object physically, the sensations
that you feel inside are psychological; physically you are getting nothing
from the object. The beloved object that is physically in front of the
eye does not enter one's body. It is standing outside. The object of affection,
even if it is sitting on one's lap, is really outside oneself. It has not
entered one's being. How, then, can one feel happy?
The happiness
is a reaction set up by the nervous system inside. It is purely internal,
to bring about which situation, the object outside acts as an instrument.
The object of affection, physically, is just an instrument. It cannot bring
satisfaction, really. The satisfaction is in the nervous titillation, mental
operation, psychological acceptance.
If this is
the case borne in mind, you do not need any physical object in front of
you to be happy inside. Even if you want an object of that kind, you can
close your eyes and feel its presence and the same situation will be summoned
from within. You will burst forth through your nervous system, in your
mind, and you will feel the same sensations as you felt apparently by the
perception of the physical object, externally.
Later on,
even the thought of the object will not be necessary. There is a
higher kind of concentration, namely, that the substantiality of that object
is inseparable from the substantiality of oneself. The happiness that you
feel in the presence of a beloved object is due to the Atman manifesting
itself thereby. We are confused in our mind when we feel that an object
of sense is giving us satisfaction. What is actually happening is that
when you are desiring an object, the mind goes out of the Self. You are
out of yourself at the time of your love for anything outside. You have
transferred yourself into the object. As you are out of yourself, you are
unhappy: you have lost yourself. The identity of yourself has been broken
by the separation of your so-called self in transferring it to the object
outside. Then you are not in you; you are somewhere else, in that object.
You can be even in London, though physically you are sitting in India,
by the transference of mind to that object which is there.
The unhappiness
of the mind is caused by the separation of the object from the Atman.
When you obtain the object, when the object comes near, the desire diminishes
due to the prospect of having it. When it is nearer and nearer, the joy
goes on increasing further and further - "Oh I am getting it!" When it is
actually under one's possession, physically, it is immense joy. The mind
ceases to go outside itself at that time. It settles in its own root. You
plant yourself in yourself due to the feeling of the mind that it need
not any more think of the object and it need not go out of itself. That
is why you are feeling happiness when the object seems to be under your
possession. The happiness has not come from the object, it has come from
yourself only!
So, be careful
in the choice of your object. This object of your meditation should be
satisfying to you in every way, not merely as a titillating medium as a
sense object, but as a total blessing that is going to be poured upon you.
Don't you
think that you are meditating on the object because it is representing
God Himself? Do you consider God as a sense object? He is the All. Everywhere
He is legs and feet, everywhere eyes, everywhere Vishvarupa, the
Universal. How will you consider Him as a sense object? That great Being,
the cosmic inclusiveness, was concentrated in one person called Krishna,
which the gopis were chasing. Why were they after this one person?
He was capable of manifesting himself as all persons because the concentrated
whole was charged with the force of the whole, which attracted their attention.
When anybody loves you, they feel for the time being that you are all things;
otherwise, nobody can really love. If you are only 'something', the love
also will be 'something' only. It cannot be the all-consuming thing that
it really is.
When you choose
the object of your meditation, be sure that you can persuade yourself to
pour your affection on it. Don't be under the impression that you are only
concocting some feeling which is not genuine. You can summon anything if
your mind is really concentrated on it. Jnaneshvar Maharaj concentrated
on a wall; he just touched it and it started moving. The great Bharadvaja
Rishi, who gave a grand reception to Bharata when he went to the forest
in search of Rama, summoned the gods in heaven by uttering mantras
in his yajnashala and the divinities started raining down on earth.
Your feeling,
your love, your longing for God in the form of the object that you have
chosen is not an imagination of your mind. It is a truth that has been
manifested before you in the form of this little 'occasion' of the cosmic
power. Your heart is meditating, not merely your brain or sense organs.
The meditating consciousness is the soul of yourself. If you want the soul
of the object to speak to you and delight you, then your soul has to rise
up to the occasion and concentrate itself on the soul of the thing looking
like an object.
Who is meditating?
Your soul is meditating on the soul of the object. When I love you, I love
your soul, the greatness, grandeur, beauty of your depth of personality,
and not your physical feature. And when I love you, it is not my body that
loves you, nor my mind. My whole being, the root itself, is poured forth
on your centrality. The deepest root of mine is loving the deepest root
in you. Soul loves soul. "Nobody loves anything except the soul," says
Yajnavalkya in the Brihadaranyaka Upanishad.
The soul of the
meditator is pouring itself forth upon the soul of the object, so that
it may become united with the All-Soul of the universe. Such is the background
which you need in your mind before you take to Yoga practice in the form
of meditation.
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